Tuesday, October 7, 2014

I bid adieu

In the random case that anyone was actually reading this or managed to hang on during all the large and expansive breaks.  I think that it's time to say goodbye.

I can't quite pull the plug to close the blog because I want those posts, I want to see them and remember them.  Someday when I figure out how to print them or save them somewhere else I may close the blog.  Also it's staying here just incase I realize I can't stay away.

The reason I started the blog was to share my thoughts, write, share experiences and such.  I think in the beginning I might have done that but this year.  2014 I didn't.

The past few years have been very hard and like I said in a previous post, I learned a lot about me.  I learned my strengths and my weaknesses.  I learned that as much as I say my family keeps things close and doesn't share that much, I am the same way.  I learned it well and have mastered it.

I thought I could share them here but I just can't.  Everything seems to personal and I just can't handle the concern.  It's so nice and thoughtful but my defenses kick in and once the concern comes, I start to say and think I mean.  I am fine.

It's not always true but to share is too much.

I feel like I am doing the blog and the people that might follow a disservice by not sharing my real life.  Sometimes I don't even share my real life with my closest friends.  It's all too scary and I haven't quite mastered it.  These are things I need to work on.  While I will still write, it just might not be here.

I need to work on me, my family, my parenting, my marriage, my friendships, my life!  These are the important things that need love, care and my attention.

So with a sad face on, I bid my lovely Kids, Life and Shoes adieu!